My Twenty-Something Quasi-Soap

wow...that was almost too cryptic. i really hope it makes sense. now i feel like i've got one foot outside the plane and one foot inside. i hope this wasn't a stupid move. i could always delete that last post, but that would be cheating. if i delete posts, i delete history. and i need to stop babbling and go to sleep. (like i'll be able to sleep until i find out what happens next)

it's at odd hours of the night/morning that i do my best and worst thinking. that's the best preface that i can come up with for the next bit of cryptic writing i'm about to put down. if it doesn't make sense, it's ok. it's only intended to make sense to one person who let me know that s/he reads this blog (and hopefully that one person will get it and let me know that I'm not going crazy). anyways, here goes... Right now, I feel like I'm going skydiving for the first time. The plane's in the air, I'm in the plane, and I have 2 choices: jump or stay in the plane. If I jump, I'll either get to experience the thrill of flying before safely landing with a parachute, or some horrible disaster will occur and I will plunge to my death. If I stay in the plane, I'll get to land safely, but know that I missed out on a chance of a lifetime because I was too chicken to jump. So what do I do now? Do I jump, or stay in the plane?

*sigh* rainy days and mondays always get me down... well, for once it's not raining today, but it's unnaturally cool. will the weather ever make up its damn mind and decide what season it is? actually, the first day of summer isn't until like next week or something. i guess that's why it's allowed to be barely 70 degrees outside. so i'm here in the computer lab again...putting off other important things that need to be done...because i don't feel like doing anything. blargggghhh. we went to the Cheesecake Factory last night for Father's Day. I'm glad that the food was superb because the service was terrible. first of all, we had to wait an hour and 45 minutes for a table. yes, an hour and 45 fricking minutes. then when we were finally seated, we ended up with a space cadet of a waitress who took for-ev-er to get our drink orders, appetizers, entrees, etc. but the food was really good...i had a Factory Grande Burrito. when they said grande, they re

update on the accident girls: originally i had said that one of the girls broke 3 vertebrae. this morning, we were all relieved to learn that only 1 vertebra was cracked, and she'll have surgery to have a pin put in it. reminder: that still doesn't mean that it's ok to act like a retard behind the wheel of a motor vehicle. *end of very real yet "after-school special"-ish PSA*

*sigh* a crazy day around here, especially for my sister. she was at a softball tournament down in pennsylvania and 8 of her teammates were involved in a car accident. the cause of the crash: they were driving side-by-side on a two lane road. a car was headed toward them and the girl swerved back into the right lane, clipping the back of the other car. one of the cars hit a telephone pole. my sister was riding with my dad and didn't see the accident happen, but saw the wrecked cars and her teammates being loaded into ambulances. what makes it all worse was that one of the drivers didn't even have a license...she's only 16 (driving age in NJ is 17). I'm so glad that my sister wasn't in one of those cars...many of the girls are really hurt. one cracked 3 vertebrae and had to be flown to philadelphia. another girl went through the windshield and tore up her face. a third girl broke her femur (her thigh bone)...it will be at least 5 months before she walks again. wha

so here i am in the computer lab at school. i'm putting off going over to the Shoestring office to give them more money, but i will go soon as i've recieved one nasty voicemail from my director and one direct e-mail from the producer. *sigh* whatever. once i am done with my class today, i'll officially be halfway done with summer session...it's gone by faster than i thought it would. i guess it's because i've set up a routine for myself that gets me through the day: -wake up 1/2 hour before leaving house -leave house 10 minutes late -get through traffic and make it to class on time anyway -stay awake through eastern religions -go to computer lab and play for approx 1 1/2 hours -eat lunch in car -slave over tedious project in scenic art and/or listen to boring and pointless lecture -go to andre's frat and hang out for a few hours -get through traffic going home -hang around the house and annoy people, eat food, and watch tv shows that annoy people

My Life, by the numbers: a status report. Time elapsed since moving home for the summer: 2 weeks, 3 days Weeks left of summer session: 5 Weeks left till Scotland: 9 Weeks till fall semester: 13 Weight gained since being home: 8 lbs Weight lost since being home: 4 lbs Hours of exercise completed: approx 4 hours (if playing Dance Dance Revolution counts) Times I have fed the cat: 2 Times I have chased the cat out of my room: approx 10 Times I have cursed the cat's existence: approx 34 (at least twice a day) Inhaled doses of albuterol due to cat dander exposure: approx 8 Times I have vacuumed my room: 2 Times I have dusted my room: 2 Times I have woken up miserable due to allergens in my house: 17 DVD's rented since being home: 3 Video stores in the area where I owe overdue fees: 2 Places of current employment: 0 Amount of last paycheck: $144 Amount of last Mastercard bill: $468 Amount of money due for Scotland: $1,000 Amount of money needed for spe