My Twenty-Something Quasi-Soap

let it snow let it snow let it snow.....so the snow's over and everyone can stop freaking out....we only got like 7 inches or something....nothing to panic about. that's the thing i hate about Jersey: more that 3 inches and everyone's got their knickers in a twist. so the "biggest snowstorm in 2 years" is over and everyone can resume their normal activities in the morning. the snow today actually made me depressed. i had to go to work instead of gallivanting out in the snow with my friends. it was just another thing to reming me that i'm quickly approaching the big 2-0 and i'm really not a kid anymore. man, college had forced me to grow up faster in these 2 1/2 year than i think i ever have in my nearly 2 decades on this earth. within a week i've been "blessed" with the added resposibilities of figuring out how to finish paying for school, finding a way to not live at home this summer, go to Toronto for spring break, save up enough money to ...

RIP Stimpy. May 2002 - October 28, 2002. Died of torture unknown brought upon him by an evil ghetto monster. He didn't deserve to go that way, and once again I was away when he needed me most. I'll miss him dearly...I loved that fish more than I love our cat. Yeah, so my (ex) ghetto roomate and I got into a giant fight because she didn't know how to act right. She called me a dumb bitch. I told her to shut her ghetto ass up. Then she grabbed one of those ghetto combs (you know, the ones with 3 teeth missing and the long pick at the end) and had the pick all up in my face. She would really have messed me up if her friends weren't there to hold her back. I ran for the RA's room, but he wasn't there. So I bounced. Fast. I had places to be anyway. Andre went back with me a few hours later so I could get some sleepover stuff (there was no way I was going to stay there anymore), and my poor Stimpy was belly up and floating. The tank's cover was half off, and th...

*sigh* is it midnight yet? of course not, it's only quarter to 7. and i'm tired and cranky and at work. but now i'm in the office instead of at the front desk: that's right, i got promoted!!!! ok, so it's not really my office, but i get to sit in it and feel important. it's now week 5 of the new semester and i'm trying my hardest to not start a countdown to spring break. no, i don't mean thanksgiving or christmas break, i mean spring break. that's when i'll have my first real vacation. --dinner break, thanks to my man Jeff up in the kitchen!-- so now it's ten after 8...after dinner i had to do a round and clean up a few conference rooms. yeah, so spring break...the theme is Trashed in Toronto. We're going to go up there and go nuts and have lots of fun tearing up the town. Ok. Advice to all the girls out there: Boys suck. And not in a good way. (Sorry to all the guys out there reading, but i need to just get this all out in the open a...

so here we are, kids...12:30 on the morning of the 11th...the day that no longer needs description or explanation for anyone over the age of 7. when you think about it, one year ago right now, the US was sleeping and no one even considered that we would wake up to the longest, craziest year of our lives. and you know what's crazy? i'm paranoid. i, of all people, am paranoid of what's going to happen when i get out of my bed tomorrow and get ready for class. i probably would have been fine if i hadn't been watching MSNBC earlier today...the whole news about bumping up the terror alert to "high." but andre brought up a very good point: there's going to be sooooo much extra security everywhere tomorrow...anyone who would try to attack us again on today would be pretty damn stupid. that al Qaeda guy who "tipped us off" is probably having fun knowing that he's fucking with our heads and making all of us paranoid. you know, running scared and hid...

i'm at work again, but it's the night shift so i can't really get in trouble for posting a blog. all that's left is the rest of tonight, tomorrow, and then i'm back in the dorms on Sunday! finally! ok, so like one of my summer projects that i never got around to was writing an album of songs about school and name it "Songs in the Key of Scarlet." (the colors at RU are Scarlet and Black, for those of you who aren't from RU). I had a few ideas in my head, and I finally got one of them on paper tonight. So here it is, the B side to "Livin' la Vida Rutgers," "The Dorm Etiquette Song (There Are Worse Things I Could Do)"! there are worse things i could do than to shave a pit or two in a dormitory sink even though you all may think that it's trashy and uncouth there are worse things i could do leave the shower filled with hair leave my beer cans on the stairs play the same damn song all day then ignore you when you say ...

i'm being rebellious and posting a blog at work..."business use only..." ha! i've just spent an infuriating morning answering a phone that doesn't stop ringing. a guest is supposed to come in tomorrow and surprise her friend...i tried to look up her reservation and i couldn't find it. of couse, this was after i got off the phone with her. i've also had to call like 10 hotels in the area to get rate information...half of the people barely spoke english. the ones who did speak tried to sell the rooms hardcore. and i used to be one of those leeches *shudder*. so now i'm sitting here as the buzz from my coffee wears off and i await my lunchbreak. i want to go do some more shopping. well, i better get off this thing before i get caught...the Boss Lady doesn't take kindly to rule infractions...later kiddies

ahhh....August 2nd...what a lovely sound...it's 103 degrees outside and i'm here in the central-air comfort of my home listening to "summer nights" from Grease. considering all that i've been through this past month, my mood right now is surprisingly upbeat. let's see, where do I begin..... I finally got around to resolving all these unresolved feelings that i had from the relationship with my first boyfriend. we hung out a couple of times while his parents were selling their house here in NJ (his dad retired last year and they moved to Florida). it was nice to see how much he'd grown up and realizing how much i've grown up...and once i stopped beating myself up over dumping him, i had fun trading witty comments about life and stuff. truly the highlight of my summer...or at least one highlight of my summer that i've recently titled "the summer from hell." speaking of the underworld, i've managed to put my poor goldfish Stimpy th...

well, happy 4th of july before i forget to mention it. i'm often bitching about the hypocricies of this nation and the "man who claims to be president" and claiming that the 10th ring of hell is the Beltway, but i know how lucky i am to be living in america. so yay USA and all that other good stuff...while i await the end of the weekend so i can get rid of my star spangled fingernails. ok, so a few days ago at work, i was writing about my summer instead of writing my paper for my theater history class. now that class is over and i have nothing else better to do, i'm going to share what i wrote with y'all because i feel like it. it just goes to show what can happen when a girl's imagination runs away with her. I am not supposed to be here. I am not supposed to be sitting here scrawling down my thoughts because I don't want to write my paper. I am not supposed to be sitting here wearing an ugly red blazer and drinking cold, bad, instant coffee. My mi...

ahhh...summer....time for ridiculous adventures and inventive things to do when you're extremely bored. so here's my (mis)adventure into the world of pet care: Ok, so a month ago I won these two goldfish at Monopoly Night in the dining hall at school. I named them Ren and Stimpy. They were cute little goldfish, and I really wanted them to live. But the temporary tank I had them in was too small. Ren died the next day. But Stimpy still hung on, and he managed to survive the trip to my house. The cat totally ignored him, which was a good thing. So I still had Stimpy in this tiny little betta tank, and he was starting to freak out. So I got him a whole 1-gallon tank to enjoy, with spiffy blue gravel and an air pump. So Stimpy was living in the lap of luxury...but he was lonely. I think he missed Ren. Plus, a single goldfish swimming around in the tank wasn't a lot of fun. So I decided to go back to the pet store and buy a friend or two for Stimpy. I looked at the fish in the ...

rrraaarrrrggghhhhh! ok, so i'm like totally P.O'd with this movie i just saw, "Crazy/Beautiful." i mean, i should have known that it was possibly gonna suck. but it didn't! for the most of the movie, everything was pretty realistic. (BTW, if you haven't seen the movie and plan on seeing it someday, don't read the rest of this blog, cuz i'll probably give away parts of the movie) kirsten dunst is a decent actress and played her alcoholic/suicidal problem teen part really well. and jay hernandez (who is totally, totally, totally *hot*) did equally well as the token young latino working hard to get out of the ghetto. the way the character's paths crossed and the relationship developed were totally believable. they (i felt) accurately showed the conflicts that arose as part of the relationship (ex: carlos' family not approving of him dating a white girl). so here i am, totally wrapped up in this realistic love story, enjoying all of the randomness ...

wow, it's been a long time since i posted a blog...what's been going on with me since the last one? well, a few weeks after my inspiration with the Oscars, I took on the project of being the Stage Manager for one of the musicals on campus. lots of work, and lots of fun! so i'm becoming more attached to the whole theater thing...definite plans on making it a life-long career. i finished up the semester in top form: 3.3 GPA! yay! if i keep up the good work, I'll have a 3.0 cumulative by the end of the fall! now it's summer, and my life is about to get hectic. i have a summer class from Memorial day to the 4th of July. on top of that, I'll be working 2 jobs. I wanna have lots of money and be able to go somewhere for spring break. So i won't be able to go to Chicago this summer, but i'll get there eventually...i need to go back badly. i can't believe that i'm already 2 years into my college career. i mean, these past 2 years have just flown by me! ...

oh my god! all right, here's the sign that's on my door, and the note that I've just put in my instant messenger profile: "At approximately 12:10 (Eastern Standard Time) on March 25, 2002, history was made. Halle Berry *won* the Academy Award for Best Actress. A journey 74 years in the making has come full circle! Look for me in 2009 y'all...I'm gonna do it too! And at 12:26, Denzel Washington won the Oscar for Best Actor! History again...didn't think it would happen so soon, huh?" And it's true...history has been made! Halle is the first Black woman to win the Academy Award for Best Actress! And I mean it when I say I'm gonna do it too...maybe not in 2009, but someday I will. See, three years ago, I realized that I really love to act (even though I've never been in a play or movie), and I made a promise to myself that ten years from that day, I would win an Academy Award for it. I didn't think about the fact that I am a Black w...

ahhh, nothing like green tea at 6:30 in the evening. yeah, yeah, I know, "Why am I drinking green tea in the evening when I know i have a horrible sensitivity to caffeine?" well, this has been a crazy weekend. it's actually been a crazy few weeks, but that's beyond the point right now. anyway, I have to go see a three hour play tonight (provided I can still buy a ticket to get in), and I need to be able to stay awake. my acting teacher is in the play, and if he happens to catch me sleeping, I'm a dead girl. so i got into the poetry slam, but i didn't stand a chance against the other people in it. My poetry is a little different...maybe not slam-worthy. Everyone liked what I did, but I didn't make it past the 1st round. that's ok, though. all of the stuff that's been happening has made for some great poetry, most of which is now on my site. now if i could only find the means to make it look cooler... drama drama drama....that's all i can reall...

yay! i'm back in Jersey, and I've never been happier. all of the drama that i expected to happen didn't happen with my family; it all happened in trying to get to kansas city and back. if one more person tries to use one of those wand-thingie metal detectors on me, they're a dead motherfucker! i got pulled to the side twice on the way home for a "random" security check. in cincinatti, the bitch went completely through all of my stuff. i was not pleased. and the flights were kinda sucky, but that's just because i don't like turbulence very much. correction: i don't like turbulence at all. but i'm back on the ground, i've caught up on my sleep, and i didn't have any classes today. yay! now i'm looking at my room and realizing that i left it in a total mess, and now i really have to get it cleaned if i want to be able to function for the rest of the week. tomorrow is wednesday, which is a good thing. so valentine's day....did it ...

rrraaaaarrrggggghhhhh!!!!!! that's how i'm feeling right now. i'm supposed to be all excited about our trip to Kansas, and i'm nothing but stressed. you see, my uncle is going to be installed as the new minister of a church, and it's a really big deal to everyone. my mom and my aunt (my uncle's wife) see it as a victory against my grandparents, mainly my grandmother. my grandparents expected my uncle to take over their church when my grandpa retires. they built the church from the ground up, and they were hoping to keep it in the family. so this whole installation thingie has just been fodder for my grandmother's endless guilt trips. grrr. the trip is a big deal to me because i'll get to see my baby boy cousins. one just turned three in october, and the other one was born right around 9-11. and i'll get to see all 4 of my other girl cousins, who make me feel old because i remember when two of them were born and they're now 9 and 7 (i think). my o...

ahhh, the sounds of a sleeping andre. he's passed out on my bed and softly snoring away. we've all had a crazy week, between classes and rush week and a Craig David concert on wednesday. ....mmmm...craig david.....yum..... The concert was amazing and I rode the subway for the first time ever! i've realized that i need to go to the city more and get rid of my wide-eyed-suburban-girl look and work on my jaded new yorker look. i love going to the city. too bad it's so expensive and such a pain in the ass to get there....i'd be there all the time if it wasn't. arrgh.....my room is a wreck! all of my clothes smell like frat party! and i'm exhausted. oh yeah! i finally got my ethernet access back! i had to go to comp. services in person in order to get it done, but i'm happily blogging from my own computer again. *gasp* i actually started to go to the gym last week....haven't been back since monday, though. i said it's been a crazy week.... my foo...

and finally, I've returned to the wonderful world of Rutgers and the life that goes along with it. our dorm room still doen't have heat, but since it's fricking 60 degrees outside, it really doesn't matter right now. i'm sitting here typing this blog from my roomate's laptop because my ethernet connection still does not work. I called comp. services twice last week and waited on hold for 20 minutes in the process. i plan on calling again today, but i have to wait until i can sound pleasant. i was just on another bus ride from hell, and i'm kinda grumpy. but in reality, i really have nothing to be grumpy about. for once in my life, i actually enjoy school because of my classes. my acting class is amazing (btw, no more mandatory mentions of that class. i've switched to a more practical notebook journal for this semester), my other theater class is really cool, my anthropology class is absolutely fascinating, and my expos class rocks because i get to spend...

ok, a new year, and some new blogs to go along with it! so i've been gone for a while....no explanations or excuses for that. i've just been lazy. and now i'm sitting around here with nothing to do except talk to an ex-boyfriend online. isn't semester break fabulous? i built my sister's k'nex roller coaster. i'm dismantling it tomorrow because it's too big for my room. i've already made my new year's resolutions, so i can't sit down and do that. there's a lot of stuff that i could do, but like i said, i'm too lazy to do them. but i think i might paint my room next week. and i'm going shopping tomorrow. and i'll probably go to the city with andre before we go back to school. did some more work on my piddly web page....can't even get the links to work correctly. so now it's pretty much all about sitting around and waiting to go back to school.....how sad.....ok, since this is going no where, i'll depart for now. happ...