sick and tired of being sick and tired...
...so quoteth Nappy Roots, who probably stole the quote from some really good 70's soul song that no one knows.
But I can't really say that I've been sick (*knocking on wood*). I'm definitely tired though. Today's my day off from the city, but I still have so much to do here at home. I attempted to clean my room a little while ago. I got as far as getting a load of clothes in the washing machine. Then I thought about my Beanie Babies who live under my bed in a plastic box. Are they really worth anything anymore? I attempted to find out, then I gave up and now I'm here blogging about my life (or lack thereof).
But I had a point to all of this--oh yeah, I'm friggin exhausted. I guess it's because of the commute. I've been getting around 8 hours of sleep a night during the week, but the weekends have killed me. Since I'm used to going to bed at 2am and getting up at 10, getting up at 7:45 on the weekends just kills everything. And this whole stage manager thing has been a round-the-clock gig because I'm in charge of 20 million other things besides being the stage manager. Ok, so it's not 20 million other things, but it feels like it.
my room is littered with bottles of Vitamin Water and cups of yogurt. seriously. i think that's what i've been living on... Vitamin Water and yogurt. I mean, I always eat dinner when I get home at 1 in the morning, and I'll have a couple of toaster strudels for breakfast. Then it's Vitamin Water and yogurt till I get home. And it's only because I'm flat broke. I had to make one bottle of water last me 3 rehearsals once.
If there was an official Vitamin Water cult, I would totally be a member. It's like the official drink of the development team for the show that I'm working on: the director, sound designer, and I all swear by the stuff. When you think about it, it's kinda like Kool-Aid for grownups. There's all sorts of cool flavors that have cool names. And the labels say really funny things. And they have lots of vitamins in them that I don't get by eating only one real meal a day and yogurt. And toaster strudels.
But overall, Vitamin Water just makes me feel cool. And you can't beat instant coolness at only $1.50 a bottle.
So I had reached a point on complete destituteness when I recieved my check for the first half of my stage management money. I was so shocked that I think I forgot to say thank you. That check came at like the best possible time for me. Especially since the toy store screwed me over so badly that I have "forgotten that I work there." Well, I actually do forget sometimes that I still technically work there. But since they cut me down to only 4 hours a week (and no hours at all last week) and they cut my pay by $2.25, I can easily say that I'm not being paid enough to remember that I work there. I haven't checked my hours for this week. And since I didn't get a phone call this morning from anyone wondering why I haven't opened the store, I guess I didn't have to work today. I still have to pick up a paycheck from there, so I might stop by tonight before going to Shoestring. Since I don't have to be in the city, I figured I'd go see how my new brood of Shoestring kids are doing. They're a bit more mature, so I don't think I'll be calling them babies this year.
I think the other reason why I'm so tired is that I'm so stressed about my money situation. I have to get a real job, but the idea of getting a real job makes me feel like I'm selling my soul to the devil or something. When I manage to think past any underworldly references, I realize that I have no clue what kind of real job to get. Am I even qualified for anything that's going to pay any real kind of money? I mean, I majored in theater for pete's sake! And then I start thinking about how I have to find *something* because it's only a matter of time before my parents kick me out of the house and stop paying my car insurance. And then I just get really frustrated and spend the next 10 to 15 minutes concentrating on not crying. Then I'll distract myself with something for a few hours and then the whole cycle starts again. It's very energy-consuming.
So to sum it all up, I'm stressed, I'm tired, my hair is starting to fall out again, and I don't want to do anything today. But I have tons of stuff to get done, so I'll have to stop stalling.
But I can't really say that I've been sick (*knocking on wood*). I'm definitely tired though. Today's my day off from the city, but I still have so much to do here at home. I attempted to clean my room a little while ago. I got as far as getting a load of clothes in the washing machine. Then I thought about my Beanie Babies who live under my bed in a plastic box. Are they really worth anything anymore? I attempted to find out, then I gave up and now I'm here blogging about my life (or lack thereof).
But I had a point to all of this--oh yeah, I'm friggin exhausted. I guess it's because of the commute. I've been getting around 8 hours of sleep a night during the week, but the weekends have killed me. Since I'm used to going to bed at 2am and getting up at 10, getting up at 7:45 on the weekends just kills everything. And this whole stage manager thing has been a round-the-clock gig because I'm in charge of 20 million other things besides being the stage manager. Ok, so it's not 20 million other things, but it feels like it.
my room is littered with bottles of Vitamin Water and cups of yogurt. seriously. i think that's what i've been living on... Vitamin Water and yogurt. I mean, I always eat dinner when I get home at 1 in the morning, and I'll have a couple of toaster strudels for breakfast. Then it's Vitamin Water and yogurt till I get home. And it's only because I'm flat broke. I had to make one bottle of water last me 3 rehearsals once.
If there was an official Vitamin Water cult, I would totally be a member. It's like the official drink of the development team for the show that I'm working on: the director, sound designer, and I all swear by the stuff. When you think about it, it's kinda like Kool-Aid for grownups. There's all sorts of cool flavors that have cool names. And the labels say really funny things. And they have lots of vitamins in them that I don't get by eating only one real meal a day and yogurt. And toaster strudels.
But overall, Vitamin Water just makes me feel cool. And you can't beat instant coolness at only $1.50 a bottle.
So I had reached a point on complete destituteness when I recieved my check for the first half of my stage management money. I was so shocked that I think I forgot to say thank you. That check came at like the best possible time for me. Especially since the toy store screwed me over so badly that I have "forgotten that I work there." Well, I actually do forget sometimes that I still technically work there. But since they cut me down to only 4 hours a week (and no hours at all last week) and they cut my pay by $2.25, I can easily say that I'm not being paid enough to remember that I work there. I haven't checked my hours for this week. And since I didn't get a phone call this morning from anyone wondering why I haven't opened the store, I guess I didn't have to work today. I still have to pick up a paycheck from there, so I might stop by tonight before going to Shoestring. Since I don't have to be in the city, I figured I'd go see how my new brood of Shoestring kids are doing. They're a bit more mature, so I don't think I'll be calling them babies this year.
I think the other reason why I'm so tired is that I'm so stressed about my money situation. I have to get a real job, but the idea of getting a real job makes me feel like I'm selling my soul to the devil or something. When I manage to think past any underworldly references, I realize that I have no clue what kind of real job to get. Am I even qualified for anything that's going to pay any real kind of money? I mean, I majored in theater for pete's sake! And then I start thinking about how I have to find *something* because it's only a matter of time before my parents kick me out of the house and stop paying my car insurance. And then I just get really frustrated and spend the next 10 to 15 minutes concentrating on not crying. Then I'll distract myself with something for a few hours and then the whole cycle starts again. It's very energy-consuming.
So to sum it all up, I'm stressed, I'm tired, my hair is starting to fall out again, and I don't want to do anything today. But I have tons of stuff to get done, so I'll have to stop stalling.
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