humbled by stupidity

i'm not going into detail over what happened last night.

all i can say is that i just got home and out of the shower a half hour ago. it's 7pm on sunday.

my away message: acting like you're 16 when you're really 22 is never a good thing.

i believe in miracles: i'm alive, and as of this moment I have not been kicked out of my house.

i've been forced to think about a lot of things. and i know now that i'm finally ready to grow the hell up so i can move out of my house and really do what i want to do with my life. it's not going to be easy or fun at all, but i have to make it happen.

i am not going to waste my youth pissing about and realizing 30 years from now that i never followed my dreams. whenever i really need to pull through and make things happen, I do. it's time to do it again.

there's nothing like a near-death experience to make you put your life back on track.

and don't worry, i didn't have some crazy born again experience that's going to turn this into the I Love Jesus blog. (no offense to anyone)

but i know that i've got a lot of time left and i have to stop wasting it.

and if there's anyone who still actually reads this and manages to believe that i am not a total head case...well, i guess that would be a miracle too.

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