What's next?

My awesome job is now even awesomer because it's permanent now!

Yay benefits, vacation days, and a pretty nice raise!

Which means shopping, trips, and more shopping!

Yaaayyyyy!!!

Now I can get the gigantic dent taken out of my car and get the paint redone before my car really starts to look rusty. As much as I love my little tank (it's really just a Corolla, but it takes a hit like a tank), it's starting to cost me more money to keep it in good condition.

But then again, you really can't complain when your car runs for 105,000 miles on the factory installed spark plugs.

Yesterday, I could have gotten away with a free $300 brake job on my car. They forgot to add it to my bill. I was halfway down the road when I realized that if something went wrong with my brakes, I couldn't blame the shop because I had no paper trail. So I had to go back and point out the error so I could shell out my $300 and have my proof. But I got a coupon for a free oil change since I was so honest.

Yay karma!

But I guess what the big pressing question is now is this: what's next?

Because, of course, I can't be satisfied with the fact that I've landed a really cool job tha could lead to a lifetime career. I can't be satisfied with the fact that in the 2 years since I got out of college I have worked on some theater in the city, assistant directed two more seasons of Shoestring, survived two mentally abusive jobs, took full ownership and responsibility of my car and the insurance, attended the wedding of one of my best friends from high school, and moved out of my parents' house.

Instead of being happy with all the things that I have accomplished and all the growing up I've done, I'm instead trying to figure out what the next step is. After I get the paint and dent work done on my car.

But we all really know what I'm supposed to do next. And frankly, I doubt it's gonna happen any time soon. The only problem is that I honestly don't have any other excuses to hide behind any more. I'm (mostly) financially sound, I have a real job that I don't plan on leaving in 6 months, I'm not going back to school...do the math.

I can't just say that I'm "too busy" or "I just don't have the time" or "I'm focusing on getting (fill in the blank) taken care of before I get involved in that."

At this point, all I can say is that I've given up on that for the time being. I saw a t-shirt a few weeks ago that I should have bought, but didn't have the time to:

"I think, therefore I'm single."

I don't need a t-shirt for that. It's already invisibly tattooed on my forehead.

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