Struggling between commerce and the greater good...

now back to our regularly scheduled programming....

so i've been out of college for almost a month now and it still isn't really hitting me yet.
well, it's starting to kick in a bit, i guess.

my two best friends from Illinois are engaged (to different people), and it's weird. i mean, i guess it makes sense. the general american way of life progresses in such a way that it's perfectly acceptable to get engaged and married right after college. but still....
granted, rachel and jeff are two of my dearest friends...we were real tight when i lived out there. you know how you you don't see people for a long time and then you see them again and realized how much they've grown? although i keep in touch with them (well, mostly rachel put she's kept me posted on jeff), most of my tangible memories of them are of when we were still in high school. and early in high school, at that. it's just weird to see people my age settling down and getting married...are we really that old already?

my mom says a lot of it has to do with the midwestern way of life. which really freaks me out. if we had stayed in illinois, i could very well be planning my own wedding around theirs (which would have to be between june and october). but i moved to jersey, and i'm proud to say that i'm a bona-fide Jersey girl (although i will always give my props to my midwestern childhood and the things that make me so bi-regional). so here i am; the ink on my diploma is still fresh, i sorta have a boyfriend, and i work at the frigging cheesecake factory.

i don't know if i should be proud that i'm still living a free and youthful life or worried that every day that my life continues like this brings me closer to the title of official loser.

i keep wanting to work on my resume, but i just stare at the skeleton draft hopelessly. i guess the idea that this one little piece of paper is supposed to describe me and tell whoever's reading it that i'm totally qualified for the position they're looking to fill. is there such a thing as resume perfomance anxiety?

i shall pause to play snood and eat frozen lemonade.

and i'm back. after helping my mom burn a cd.

and i have consequently lost the desire to continue blogging at this moment, as i am awaiting a phone call that will set me free of my allergen-ridden house and out into the muggy night air. i shall flee to new b in my trusty toyota and kick back with the crew and some coronas.

once again enjoying a carefree post-grad life with no strings attached (except for the one that keeps me employed).