here i am, sitting at the comp., watching Let's Make a Deal. why, i do not know. yesterday still seems fuzzy, considering all that happened. woke up today, reminding myself that all was not right in the world, as i had hoped when i finally fell asleep. nothing like double stuff oreos and a good movie to act as a brain eraser. watched a bit of the news today, nothing new to report, thank god. now it's all endless analysis of shit we can't analyze yet and reporters like katie couric (who i can't stand) asking the dumbest questions in the world. even in this time of massive tragedy, the networks show no compassion at all. i wonder if there's some little punk executive in an office somewhere saying, "hey, let's make this awesome graphic of that plane hitting the WTC and use it as a background for all of today's coverage!" Well, there would have to be, because it's really like that. just check out MSNBC. it's disgusting. so i understand why there's no class today, but i wish i did have to go. can't sit around all day and do nothing. but, i'm actually not! today, i'm going to the hospital and and donating blood. i hope they let me....i'm big enough and my piercing was 8 months ago. plus, i'm going to beg them to let me do it. it's like the only thing i can do right now. so, if anybody is reading this, once you're done with your internet stuff, get off your ass and get thee to a hospital or anyplace else where you can donate blood. don't be scared about it, and at least make the effort before they turn you away. today will be my first day donating, and i'm going to be as brave about it as i can be. right now there are people going through a lot worse. ta for now darlings....more updates when they're ready.
Struggling between commerce and the greater good...
...is emotionally draining. My current job allows me to work with schools in such a way that I'm beginning to realize yet again that I should be a teacher. To have the ability to work with kids and inspire them to work hard and get ready for the real world...that's something that's of real merit. That's something to truly be proud of. Even only reaching one kid a year out of the 30 or more you may teach...that's one kid that you've inspired to read more or write more or become a scientist or a teacher or the next President. I don't care if you think this sounds cliched...it's the truth. Anyway, now I'm in a position where the things that I really want to do can't be accomplished with the job that I currently have. Frustrating, yes. Surprising, no. Long time readers really know how not surprising this is. But things are ok for now. I'm thinking about lots of stuff and keeping busy at work and focusing on things that will help me keep my sanity...
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