ok kids, take a deep breath, and let's talk about something normal and mundane like my daily travels. got up at 9am for a 9:50 psych class...got there 20 mins late....damn buses...sat in the back of the lecture hall on the floor, which allowed me to not pay al lot of attention to the lecture. the Dr. has this soothing mr. rogers voice that puts you to sleep. anyhoo, after class, went to the store for some drugs (i have a cold, sillies) and then it was off to Brower (rutgers-speak for one of the dining halls) for lunch. yummy....french fries and mandarin oranges. sat there a while to read the paper, then had to leave. one can only spend so much time in the dining hall before the smell gets to you. i was feeling pretty draggy, so i went to abp (rutgers-speak for au bon pain) for a mocha blast. i need the espresso to get me through expos and theater appreciation. sat some more, drank my liquid caffeine, then off to expos. after expos, theater appreciation. my professor is practically an underground celebrity. founded george st. playhouse, co-founded crossroads (incognito), produces off-broadway stuff...freakin cool, huh? stayed awake through class, and ran into this kid that i know from last year. some interesting stuff went down between us a year ago (another story for another day, dearies). so he apologized and i said that i appreciated the fact that he realized that what he did was fucked up. back to the bus....waited forever for a crowded LX (rutgers-speak for Livingston Express (ha!))...whenever i see crowded buses, i always think of this picture i saw in a social studies book of these people in Japan cramming into a subway, and how they have porfessional "pushers" who help people fit onto the train. so i finally make it back to the dorm, turn on the tv for a bit, turn it off. talked to my buddy andre, and now i'm headed to his house to chill and tune out the world some more. it's not that i don't care, i just can't deal. we're all still trying to wake up and it just isn't fucking happening. and so another boring blog gets posted, but at least it wasn't depressing or anything. i'll make a deal with you guys: from now on, I'll try to find something funny or quirky to think about and give you all to read. today it was the japanese subway thing, tomorrow, who knows? don't i always say that? ok kiddies, i'm signing off for now, and i'll catch ya all on the flipside. peace and love to all (the only things we really need now)
Struggling between commerce and the greater good...
...is emotionally draining. My current job allows me to work with schools in such a way that I'm beginning to realize yet again that I should be a teacher. To have the ability to work with kids and inspire them to work hard and get ready for the real world...that's something that's of real merit. That's something to truly be proud of. Even only reaching one kid a year out of the 30 or more you may teach...that's one kid that you've inspired to read more or write more or become a scientist or a teacher or the next President. I don't care if you think this sounds cliched...it's the truth. Anyway, now I'm in a position where the things that I really want to do can't be accomplished with the job that I currently have. Frustrating, yes. Surprising, no. Long time readers really know how not surprising this is. But things are ok for now. I'm thinking about lots of stuff and keeping busy at work and focusing on things that will help me keep my sanity...
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