i hate growing up.
when you get older, you see things in people that you never had the ability to see when you were a kid. you understand the world in different ways. you realize how big and bad this world can really be, and you learn about just how unfair it really is.
normally i would be sitting here complaining about my job and how much i need to get my resume done and other mundane crap like that, but i'm going through a temporary change in perspective.
a few minutes ago, i learned that a person that i knew was murdered sometime within the past week.
well, i can't really say that i knew sarah. i only saw her two times...she was the best friend of one of my shoestring kids. but from the short amount of time that i did spend with her, i was able to see what an amazing person she was. the one word that keeps coming to my head about sarah is warmth. there was just something about her that was instantly likeable. she saw "fiddler on the roof" with a bunch of the shoestring kids and she kept thanking me for the extra ticket, and it struck me that she was truly genuine about it.
i guess that's all i can say about her before i make it sound like we were best friends. i barely knew her, but i felt like i had been punched in the stomach when i saw her picture on a news teaser tonight. i recognized her instantly.
i can't even begin to imagine what prysm is going through right now.
hence, my temporary change in perspective.
i realize that i do a lot of bitching and moaning and whining in this blog. mostly i do it because it helps me vent. abusing my keyboard and taking up a tiny corner of infinite cyberspace helps me live my life in a way. but there are those little moments every day when i know that i'm thankful to have the life that i have. i'm lucky to have met sarah fox, even if it was just for a short time. i'm fortunate to have had the experiences that i have had that have allowed me to be touched by so many different people in my short lifetime.
hearing what i heard on the news tonight changed my perspective, even if it is for a short while. it happens to all of us. things like this happen, and we change for a time. things eventually return to normal. for some it happens quickly, for others it will take a long time. we move on, but we never forget, and we will always know the things that have changed us and made us who we are.
i guess i feel guilty that i'll bounce back faster.
this world is so damn unfair. why does it take things like sarah's murder to make us all think about what's really important? i know we aren't perfect, but i wish we could all be.
i'm not sure if i believe in heaven, but i do believe in angels. sarah's definitely with them tonight, and hopefully she'll find a way of letting someone know she's all right. i hope prysm's one of those people.
once again, my words fail me at a time when i need them the most. but my thoughts are with prysm and sarah's family and friends...i know i feel a mere fraction of their pain.
when you get older, you see things in people that you never had the ability to see when you were a kid. you understand the world in different ways. you realize how big and bad this world can really be, and you learn about just how unfair it really is.
normally i would be sitting here complaining about my job and how much i need to get my resume done and other mundane crap like that, but i'm going through a temporary change in perspective.
a few minutes ago, i learned that a person that i knew was murdered sometime within the past week.
well, i can't really say that i knew sarah. i only saw her two times...she was the best friend of one of my shoestring kids. but from the short amount of time that i did spend with her, i was able to see what an amazing person she was. the one word that keeps coming to my head about sarah is warmth. there was just something about her that was instantly likeable. she saw "fiddler on the roof" with a bunch of the shoestring kids and she kept thanking me for the extra ticket, and it struck me that she was truly genuine about it.
i guess that's all i can say about her before i make it sound like we were best friends. i barely knew her, but i felt like i had been punched in the stomach when i saw her picture on a news teaser tonight. i recognized her instantly.
i can't even begin to imagine what prysm is going through right now.
hence, my temporary change in perspective.
i realize that i do a lot of bitching and moaning and whining in this blog. mostly i do it because it helps me vent. abusing my keyboard and taking up a tiny corner of infinite cyberspace helps me live my life in a way. but there are those little moments every day when i know that i'm thankful to have the life that i have. i'm lucky to have met sarah fox, even if it was just for a short time. i'm fortunate to have had the experiences that i have had that have allowed me to be touched by so many different people in my short lifetime.
hearing what i heard on the news tonight changed my perspective, even if it is for a short while. it happens to all of us. things like this happen, and we change for a time. things eventually return to normal. for some it happens quickly, for others it will take a long time. we move on, but we never forget, and we will always know the things that have changed us and made us who we are.
i guess i feel guilty that i'll bounce back faster.
this world is so damn unfair. why does it take things like sarah's murder to make us all think about what's really important? i know we aren't perfect, but i wish we could all be.
i'm not sure if i believe in heaven, but i do believe in angels. sarah's definitely with them tonight, and hopefully she'll find a way of letting someone know she's all right. i hope prysm's one of those people.
once again, my words fail me at a time when i need them the most. but my thoughts are with prysm and sarah's family and friends...i know i feel a mere fraction of their pain.
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