stuff to say, stuff to say......too much to talk about this week...but i'm doing laundry so i've got tons o time.
ok, so like, today in acting class we started off by working on our monologues. luckily mine's a bit short so i didn't have to work on cutting anything. then we had to go and recite a poem in front of the class. now, i did mine on wednesday so i could just go and get it over with. i'm glad i did, because Christian (our teacher) really worked hard on the 2 girls who went today. when i went, i guess i did ok because she didn't have me up there very long. but i had to say my poem like 3 times....i've got too much tension in my shoulders and i'm not speaking from my gut. so when i tried doing that, i locked my knees. and then i started twitching my fingers. so before i know it, i'm speaking from my chest, locking my knees, twitching my fingers, and the whole time i'm telling myself, "speak from you gut! bend your knees! and for the love of god, stop moving your fingers!!" needless to say, i was not too happy. i wish i could have just gotten up there and did my thing, but we have to work on having proper stage presence and all that good kind of stuff. and you know what was really stupid? i was so immature and egotistical enough to think that i was going to be able to get up there and say my poem in one shot and do it perfectly. be perfectly loose and clear and everything. it was almost like i wanted to get up there and show everyone that i could do it perfectly. *sigh* that's so ridiculous of me, but it's the truth.
so anyway, today this one girl went up to do her poem, and christian started wrking with her to get rid of all the tension and stuff that she had, and the girl just breaks down crying. christian calls it "popping." so after she stops crying, the class started talking about the whole emotional aspect of the craft and everything. and then the song popped in my head. the same song that goes through my head almost everytime i'm in class. ok, have you ever seen "a chorus line"? it doesn't matter if you've seen the movie or the actual show. i saw the movie and i thought it sucked. the show's probably a lot better. but i'm getting off topic. ok. in the show, there's this one character who sings a song about the acting class that she was in in high school. and the chorus of it kinda went "and i said nothing/ i'm feeling nothing/ and they said nothing would get a girl transferred/ they all felt something/ but i felt nothing/ except maybe that this bullshit was absurd/" now, i'm not calling any of the stuff that we do in class bullshit. not in the least. but sometimes i'm wondering if i'm missing something sometimes. i've been trying really hard in all of the exercises, and i actually did really well on one of them, but that was like the only time. *sigh* i guess i've got one of those blocks put up inside me somewhere. no, i don't guess. i know i've got a block because i keep thinking that i don't have one at all. go fig.
o yeah, one more thing about acting before i move on. i finally made it to class on time today! yay! i had to set two alarm clocks to do it, but i did it.
so after seeing a play last night, i hop on the bus and call andre to see what he's up to. and he tells me we're going to the club. as always, we decide at the last minute to go. i kinda get peeved about it, but then again, it's fun to just get up and go. that's the best way to do stuff, spontaneously. whenever we actaully plan stuff it always gets messed up. i had so much fun at the club last night. the dj was pretty crappy till the very end of the night, but we still had fun. there's just something about being there on the floor with your friends and when your song comes on you just go completely crazy. and the lights are going, and the sirens are going, and the bass just rattles you from the inside out....it's so trippy. but today i'm gonna tell andre that the next time we go clubbing we're going to a straight club. there's nothing wrong with the coloseum or anything, but i gotta see if i know how to really work a club. nobody's trying to get with me at the coloseum, which is a very good thing. a lot of the people there are skeevy. well, i was gonna talk about more stuff, but i gotta go put my stuff in the dryer, and i'm kinda tired of typing. ok dearies, see you all later.
ok, so like, today in acting class we started off by working on our monologues. luckily mine's a bit short so i didn't have to work on cutting anything. then we had to go and recite a poem in front of the class. now, i did mine on wednesday so i could just go and get it over with. i'm glad i did, because Christian (our teacher) really worked hard on the 2 girls who went today. when i went, i guess i did ok because she didn't have me up there very long. but i had to say my poem like 3 times....i've got too much tension in my shoulders and i'm not speaking from my gut. so when i tried doing that, i locked my knees. and then i started twitching my fingers. so before i know it, i'm speaking from my chest, locking my knees, twitching my fingers, and the whole time i'm telling myself, "speak from you gut! bend your knees! and for the love of god, stop moving your fingers!!" needless to say, i was not too happy. i wish i could have just gotten up there and did my thing, but we have to work on having proper stage presence and all that good kind of stuff. and you know what was really stupid? i was so immature and egotistical enough to think that i was going to be able to get up there and say my poem in one shot and do it perfectly. be perfectly loose and clear and everything. it was almost like i wanted to get up there and show everyone that i could do it perfectly. *sigh* that's so ridiculous of me, but it's the truth.
so anyway, today this one girl went up to do her poem, and christian started wrking with her to get rid of all the tension and stuff that she had, and the girl just breaks down crying. christian calls it "popping." so after she stops crying, the class started talking about the whole emotional aspect of the craft and everything. and then the song popped in my head. the same song that goes through my head almost everytime i'm in class. ok, have you ever seen "a chorus line"? it doesn't matter if you've seen the movie or the actual show. i saw the movie and i thought it sucked. the show's probably a lot better. but i'm getting off topic. ok. in the show, there's this one character who sings a song about the acting class that she was in in high school. and the chorus of it kinda went "and i said nothing/ i'm feeling nothing/ and they said nothing would get a girl transferred/ they all felt something/ but i felt nothing/ except maybe that this bullshit was absurd/" now, i'm not calling any of the stuff that we do in class bullshit. not in the least. but sometimes i'm wondering if i'm missing something sometimes. i've been trying really hard in all of the exercises, and i actually did really well on one of them, but that was like the only time. *sigh* i guess i've got one of those blocks put up inside me somewhere. no, i don't guess. i know i've got a block because i keep thinking that i don't have one at all. go fig.
o yeah, one more thing about acting before i move on. i finally made it to class on time today! yay! i had to set two alarm clocks to do it, but i did it.
so after seeing a play last night, i hop on the bus and call andre to see what he's up to. and he tells me we're going to the club. as always, we decide at the last minute to go. i kinda get peeved about it, but then again, it's fun to just get up and go. that's the best way to do stuff, spontaneously. whenever we actaully plan stuff it always gets messed up. i had so much fun at the club last night. the dj was pretty crappy till the very end of the night, but we still had fun. there's just something about being there on the floor with your friends and when your song comes on you just go completely crazy. and the lights are going, and the sirens are going, and the bass just rattles you from the inside out....it's so trippy. but today i'm gonna tell andre that the next time we go clubbing we're going to a straight club. there's nothing wrong with the coloseum or anything, but i gotta see if i know how to really work a club. nobody's trying to get with me at the coloseum, which is a very good thing. a lot of the people there are skeevy. well, i was gonna talk about more stuff, but i gotta go put my stuff in the dryer, and i'm kinda tired of typing. ok dearies, see you all later.
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