To grad school or not to grad school?

Rarrgh...trying to find music to listen to on BBC Radio...hold on...
OK, I've got a reggae/ska station on.
BBC Radio is my new obsession now. Moving onward...

So I've been seriously debating whether or not I want to go to grad school. I definitely know what I would get my master's in, which is a start. Instead of going for an MFA in Acting, I want to go for Stage Management. I'm better at it anyway, and I enjoy it a lot more.

Ok, so, should I go back to school or not?

I guess it's time for another round of pros and cons.

Pros:
-I'll earn a master's degree, which means I'll be able to teach just about anywhere that hires me, and I'll get paid more for it.
-I'll make more theater connections which will help me get a job when I get out of school.
-I get to go back to school, which means that I can get away with more stuff because I'm a poor and broke college student. Plus, being a grad student adds to the whole brokeness factor even more because I'll totally be paying for it myself.
-I'll have a reason to get out of Jersey and see what life is like in a different part of the country. I'll get to (gasp!) pump my own gasoline for the first time in my life.

Cons:
-Unless I win the lottery before going back to school or manage to score a full ride scholarship (ha!), I will be in debt for the majority of my life. Until I win the lottery with a ticket that I buy with my very last dollar.
-I'll be all by myself, far far away from home and all of my friends.
-I will be broke. Very broke.

So I guess the pros outweigh the cons. But it's hard to see all the rewards of grad school truly outweighing the permanent state of poverty that I will live in for the majority of my adult life. Stage managers don't make six figure salaries. That's just a fact.

But I really feel like I need to go away. I'm used to things changing all the time. It's either been a new school or a new state or something that I've had to adjust to, and now I'm just stuck. I've been in the same house for 6 years and I was at Rutgers for 4 whole years, which is a record for me. I'm itching to go somewhere and do something different. So short of just packing up and running away with no money, grad school is my best option for living somewhere new.
I want to go to school out West somewhere. Like California or Arizona. Maybe even Vegas. Or maybe even south. But not too far South. But I'd have to stay on the coast if I went south. And definitely not Texas. That place is just f-ing scary. And Florida is just too damn hot.
"So why would you move to Arizona, dumbass? It's just as hot there, duh!"
Arizona has a dry heat. I could handle that. Florida has that nasty muggy sticky heat going on that just makes one want to commit suicide. Trust me: I was in Ft. Lauderdale for a week in July. NEVER AGAIN.

Is it just me, or do all reggae songs sound the same?

Anyway, I think I'm going to end up in grad school in 2006. I'll be very broke and scared shitless, but I'll probably be happier in the long run. And I won't be so frickin bored with my life like I am right now.

Sigh. Off to go read more Wuthering Heights before falling asleep.

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